/free me
I'm Serene. 21 this year..

LIKES
Hello Kitty
Snoppy
Eat

DISLIKES
mood swings
waking up early

WISHES
Abolish math!

/them

friend
friend
friend
friend
friend
friend
friend

friend
friend
friend

/secrets





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Thursday, November 27, 2008
Should I give up???

What a day today!!
By right, i should be happy today.. jus back from a day leave yest...
everything was perfect today till later noon, around 4plus... he said words that makes me so sad and dampen my entire day mood...

I am :( not cos i cant accept opinion but i dun understand... y?? Why he always like to put ppl down in front of all??? if he really think that i am so lousy, then tell me straight... y he so fake all the time.. keep sayin that he is sayin for our own good...yet it appears likewise... he really enjoy puttin ppl down so much??

I did really put in a lot of effort in my work... y cant he appreciate slightly??? he leave all to me alone.. when i told him my opinion, he agrees yet deep within, he doubts me... if that's the case, y cant he be frank?

All of a sudden, things become so meaningless to me.. i really really feel like giving up many a times.. so what is holdin me back then? jus for that moment of pride?? i dun wan to be a loser.. i noe that i have the ability.. i dun wan to give up....

Haiz,... seems like i am rattling rubbish in this whole page!!

Tuesday, July 17, 2007
State of ConFusion...

Oh no...suddenly I felt so bad coz I realized that I would think of blogging only when I am in a super extremely duper lousy mood and I can't seem to let out to anyone around me then I would do so...ha...but isn't that's wat a blog is for...well...

Anyway, had bit of argument with him just...somehow I feel really terrible now... well...wouldn't really said what had happened but just made me lose my confidence in men...feel extremely sad...and perhaps I should say I felt that I am a super lousy gf...I just feel sudden that I am not suited to have bf ba...don;t know why..perhaps my parents or the old folk were right in the past that when you go steady at a young age, things usually don;t work coz you are still too young and immature...I believe it only now...ha...(perhaps the young gals out there would say bullshit...well..u won;t understand till you been thru')...

Anyway, sudden I just can't help agree with what Terrence told me before...a guy seem to only be super attentive to a gal's needs in the start or rather in the honeymood period so called and aft which, things just start to go hay-wire and ppl start to realize that things wasn't as beautiful as how they have craved out to be initially...but why....God, can you please tell me or speak to me???

Right now, I can only say I wish to hide myself and escape...he don't understand the mental strain and stress and fear I am undergoing each day...he always say he does but I really feel that he doesn't... ....

Saturday, June 30, 2007
A Lousy & Rewarding Day!

Hi there...

Ha, it's been a real long time since I blog...well...today just sudden have so much within that I need to let out...hmm...what shall I start with 1st? well...okies, let just start with the reason why I came back to blog again...or rather today...ha...coz..I feelin so down and thus was thinkin if I shld blog out my thots or keep a diary...well..guess i am still better off with a diary, the traditional way than these high-tech ones coz the level of privacy is higher...I think...hee...

Today, I woke up in a rush coz I need to go for usher duty in church @ 330pm and before that,Dear asked me to accompany him to SIM LIM to get his sd card reader as well as a new memory card...so, okie lolz...I drove to pick him up and along the way...there's this super stoopid and irritating female BMW AUNTIE who just reckless cut my lane out of no wher and I was fuming like mad but I only sound the horn softly at her. Hmm...aft that, I really pondered and scolded myself why didnt I sound a long and loud one at her...but well, perhaps coz I am too kind-hearted, becoming more christ-like? :P haha, i wish...

Next unhappy thingy would be Dear's fault lolz...Drove so fast @ the ECP and forgot that the speed limit is only 80km and yet he drove at close to 100km and that's it...we drove past the camera and I am not sure if I was captured in it....sianz...well...of course I was furious but more on the worry aspect lolz...wondering how to be accountable to parents when the letter comes,...of course at the same time, I kept praying hard that everything will be fine la...and then coz of this, had a small argument with Dear again...yups, again...coz lately, got no idea why we keep having disputes...haiz...at times, really wonder, wher the prob come fr...izzit me? or....haiz...

Finally, aft attending the church service today, I felt so much better, with the peace of the Lord within...and I bought a book written by Pastor Lawrence Seow for Dear...coz that Pastor has never failed to touch my heart whenever I hear his message and I hoped he can touch Dear's with the love, grace of the Lord. I really dun wish to give Dear any pressure but prayed hard that one day, we will be fighting the battle for the Lord today.

Of course, for now, I can only wait with a prayerful mind and soul for the week that no traffic offence letter would come. Shall update again....hopefully, it's good news... Amen!




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Wednesday, November 01, 2006
birthday gifts? i dun noe..

now is 1140am in the morning...haiz...just saw a msg on my phone by a friend asking me what birthday gift i wan...lately, i've been receiving lots of such msg...hmm,wat do i wan? I seriously got no idea leh cos there's just so many things i wan...shld i just prepare out a wish list and let them pick from? hmm...but i m so packed with work now...ok ok,i will just roughly do up 1 now...

my wish list:
- Anna Sui Mascasra (but they wont know wat color i like)
- Anna Sui Lip Gloss (jus plain without any coloring)
- Anna Sui Rose Ring
- Lancome comestics (but still dun noe wat i wan)
These above could be done by just getting me 100 bucks Robbinson voucher!
- new clothes (brand that i fancy are polo\levi\zara\anything nice n to my taste)
- bag...............
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err...i m stuck...let me think again...=)

Wednesday, October 18, 2006
What a hot & hazy day!!!

Hmm...today is 18 Oct 2006...and now is 2.46pm...Ohhh...ha...it's one of my babes birthday...Ha...wishing her a HAPPY 21st Birthday...though i doubt she will ever see this...hee.. anyway...hmm....sudden jus feel so excited as my very own 21st approaching too...ha...especially cant wait to see what surprises my dear dear as well as the babes have in planned for me...hmmm...wish that it will be a great & most memorable 1 for me... since young, never had any birthday party before and this is my 1st...somehow actual abit scare..cos i dun noe how to cope with the crowd...ha..well..let's think abt it later then...

Anyway,today been super stress up since the moment i woke up...was dragged out of bed by mummy lolz...and i started immediately on my assignments...like so hardworking hor...but actual is i got no choice...cos PROJECTS are due soon and presentations are coming up...EXAMS are coming...whooo...I am so STRESS...n I HATE STRESS...well, seem like right now, I can only depend on God for his strength to help me runand compete this race...TRUSTING IN HIM ALWAYS! AMEN! =)

Okok,shall blog again if ever i m free...ha...going back to books..n hope i wont fall zzzz...ha...okok,tata... :)

with luv,
rynn =)

Thursday, October 05, 2006


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Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Quite a Fruitful Day!

Hmm...today passes not too bad...ha...,the moment i opened my eyes, i saw msg on my phone left by dear dear saying that he may be able to off today...ha...my immediate reaction was 'SERIOUS?' ha...thus i jumped out of bed immediately to get started on work hoping that i can finish more stuff to meet up with him later...sighh...still got lots of project and quiz on friday...so stressed up lately lolz...

anyway, dear didnt manage to get off but got early nite-outs so we met up for dinner...better than nothing la..ha...

Oh ya,btw, jus finished reading today's readings from OUR DAILY BREAD...The message is;
'Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love'
-Ephesians 4:2

In the message, it mentions about so often in life, the words humble and gentle don't seem to belong. Instead, the words pride and harshness mark the way success is measured.

Nevertheless, competition, handled properly, can have its place in our lives. But we should always remeber to be humble and gentle in everything we do. We must reflect the characteristics of a christlike life.

My thoughts:
Competition is everywhere...you will experience it no matter at what stage of life you are...when schooling, it oftens occur in school and when out at work, guess it even pretty obvious...the way people react toward intense competition can be pretty scary...with all the backstabbing etc...often, people may become selfish too...

However, I agree with the message - no matter what, we must reflect characteristics of christlike, i.e. to be humble. We need to practice this and the world will be a better place to live in!

'True Greatness soes not come to those
who strive for worldly fame;
It lies instead with those who choose
To serve in Jesus' name'

Be Humble & You will not Stumble!

Oh ya, feeling worry about Dear right now as lately, he's been having terrible headache...well, pray that God's healing hands will be upon him and his headache will be gone when he awakes in the morning. Amen!

rynn
1240am

Sunday, October 01, 2006
my FiRst eNtry! =)

cool...this is mine 1st entry...hee...well...just blog to try out the fun of blogging...ha...today been a happy as well as saddening sunday...well..should i say sunday has always been both :) as well as :( one for me...why do i say so leh??? cos 1st, :) as it's still a weekend...hee...BUT...:( cos dear dear gotta book in...hmm...cant wait for his ORD day to arrive...

okok...that's all for now...still wanna go figure out more about blogging...
stay tune for more updates... =p


rynn
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